A Figment Of Your Imagination

So I was discharged from the military because apparently I failed to clear a room during a training exercise.

Then I called the cops on my neighbors since I thought they were being robbed, but they were just moving out and asked some friends to help them out. While police were there, they had to put down 2 dogs that broke out of another house so instead of them taking the blame and avoid getting sued, they charge me with ‘filing a false police report’.

My orginal plan was to re-enlist as soon as my probation is over, but since I’ve been hospitalized due to intent to commit suicide, I now have a federal lifetime firearms ban so I can’t pursue that dream career in the Army or became a law enforcement officer.

It seems like all my plans have turned to shit. On top of that, ALL of my friends have completely left so I have no one to depend on. This’ll be my 3rd suicide attempt over the course of 5 months. I have a springfield 1911 locked and loaded and blowing my own brains out would be the fastest way to go.

Tearible but not rippable, invincible, I hung invisible
Fucking mistletoe, over the world and stuck my ass up under it
Now pucker up them lips and kiss it hoes, here we go
Me and you, so you know how this’ll go
The competition’s miserable, we stomp them bitches, this is no, joke
Going overboard, like someone threw us off the boat, choke
Cough from all the smoke I’m tryna stay on fire
So you know if I hate fucking water-sprinklers I don’t love the hose
Someone let the cat out the bag, now it’s time to stuff his face
Back in that bitch, smother that little mothafucka until it suffocates
Who? You! Had long enough of a wait
Why are they trying to be so secretive bad and evil is reunited hey!
Came back to annihilate the game’s in dire straights,
As I await, word of Satan as I drop,
Fall to my knees before this Ouija board,
And I pray, now I lay me down to sleep
I do this shit in my sleep, I’m sleeping now imagine if I awake
I’m champ bitch, I’ll never taste the canvas
Could never be no damn wuss or pussy, never mooshy, so you can’t squoosh
No way near toosh in fact if I jump out a bush
These sneak attack’s the only way I say I ambush
Outlandish these words are weapons that I brandish
Standoffish the hoes, keep your hands off this
Can’t top it, so what the fuck would I sugarcoat it for?
Law, fuck protocol, I’d holla at this ho, but now my throat is sore

She was my dream. She made me who I am, and holding her in my arms was more natural to me than my own heartbeat. I think about her all the time. Even now, when I’m sitting here, I think about her. There could never have been another. I miss you love not a day goes by that I don’t think about you. I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I’ve ever had, and no matter what everyday we were together was the greatest day of my life.

A fifth of rum and two bottles of 151. 51 people asleep in my damn living room.
excuse me hun? but what is your name, Vivian? I woke up next to you naked and uh, did we umm…..?
Of course we did, but didn’t I strap Jimmy hun? I’m looking for the torn wrapper but there don’t seem to be one.
No offense baby girl I don’t mean any harm
But disease is something I’m trying to keep my penis free from..I find the package. and I’m cool

nd hopeefully7 never eewkae up. tumblrs my onkly friend. i ghave noopne else elft. im done with liife. had aboutt 150 pills nd a boottle of liquor. mmy sttomachs killing mee. i hiope i dontt wake up inn the mottning.

Goodbye everyone. I guess this world was just not for me. At least now I’m free.